you can't run away from yourself

Nityaananda! Gauraanga! Hare Krishna!
Dear diary,
i am not feeling so well at the moment... i am having second thoughts wheter i am able and worthy to go this way... sometimes i have even doubts about the philosophy...
and i have to fight against me, i cannot run away from myself, the old Ralph is here too, with all his wishes and anarthas (undesired qualities).
But i keep on going, praying to God that He please might take away what is hindering me to go back to Him and give me what i will need on this way.
Hare Krishna